day 75.

so here i am, pulling you in.
You had reached the farthest part of your orbit and thought you could break free
maybe in a physics-defying inexplainable moment of
arrow-stabbed still-bleeding humanity
Ignore me and find a new universe so clean such an
expanse--
But here i am
eclipsing your eyes like cataracts
Wobbling in my path around
my planets, my suns, my stars
only they aren't mine at all
and one day retrograde motion will take them out of my life.
and here i am gravitating towards you
only when i am not wanted
because i have to maintain this much distance and
nothing more--
here i am
at arm's length
a galaxy away
here i am because
i am trying to tell you i have been where you are
been the hurtling rock leaving destruction
so someone will know
I was there--that was my shadow you saw around the corner, we only
just missed each other--
and i was the one who was not there (then where?)
but smiled all careful teeth--
Only it's not cosmic or even planetary how we treat each other it's just
small monstrous acts of loneliness
like roadkill whose eyes are still open.